[jesse]

Oh! And I’m from Washington DC 😊 but I live in Tampa now. I came down here for rehab and recovery. I’m working the steps and have a sponsor. I love telling him all about the truths I’ve discovered watching and reflecting/pondering on these videos. One thing I appreciate about y’all’s message is Shawn NEVER propagates dogma. Shawn invited me to think outside the box and to think critically which I’ve never done in my life it feels like. I have no family down here in Tampa so it’s been a huge adjustment. I got fired from my last job because I stopped showing up. And it was a good job too. Lol. Now I’m a cook but I get to spend my days on auto pilot listening to these videos and I’m receiving the most liberating and meaningful education I’ve ever had.

[jesse]

Thank you so much for your response!!! When I came out of addiction I was part of apostolic, Baptist and Catholic Churches. I then encountered Mormonism and began going to Mormon church. I read Micah Wilder’s book and became obsessed with him and with Adam’s Road. Then I watched Shawn’s video after that scandal came out about Adam’s Road and I was amazed at just how real Shawn is and I showed my friends his videos too. I commented on a couple of them because I had so many questions then I found out about this app and the YES program and became a true Yeshuan!!!

you’re so right Delaney! Shifting into this theological perspective lifted years of anxiety and angst I had from my journey playing church where I felt compelled to confess my past of drug addiction and prostitution. The conversations always ended with me feeling so much worse than before and regretted trusting my pastor. I really had trauma from a couple of churches I spent time in.

this program has changed my life. I work in a kitchen as a cook in Ybor city part of Tampa at a restaurant called Barrio and I’m mostly working on the fryer so I can listen to Shawn’s videos the whole time while I work and I LOVE it.

you all are an amazing family and team and really really inspired me. I can’t thank you enough. I want to cry tears of gratitude right now because of all you have done for me. THANK YOU

[jesse]

I didn’t Come to know Jesus until after I jumped off a seven story building to kill myself on meth and overdosed twice on fentanyl. At that time I had no theology and was basically was an agnostic convert to Islam. But then in the hospital a girl gave me a copy of the Apostolic Record and Jesus called me into his arms. It was an incredible experience I had that got watered down and deflated over the years of playing church not even knowing I was being taken advantage of and tithing out of fear and obligation. The world of brick-and-mortar religion had me in its grips. I hated it and I felt guilty for hating it and ashamed of my past and thought I was going to hell for sure. Scales fell from my eyes the first time I heard Shawn in the video about Adam’s Road. I didn’t have the capacity to think for myself at that time and just saw everyone as holier than myself. I thought I was the worst sinner in the world and there was no hope because I had done drugs and sold my body for so many years. I had some childhood trauma from when I was 14 I couldn’t tell anyone about. The fourth time I went to rehab I prayed for Jesus to come into my heart and broke down crying like I never had before. One of the counselors there hugged me and told me God forgives. But I could hardly believe it. I just wanted to be a “good Christian.” But I just couldn’t. I felt so ashamed of myself. But I’m working through my issues now in therapy and through listening to these videos and allowing myself to be loved and forgiven.